I figured it's about time I talked about this here. As some of you may know/have seen, a ton went down on my tumblr. Namely, the batman askblog.
The reason is because people noticed I don't do gay ships there. And that I like to sometimes ship Ivy and Hatter.
So I have now gotten a death wish, been called homophobic and racist (because I made Damian's mom Selina not Talia) and that I now harm the lgbt community and "trama-based lesbians". All I have done is simply avoid certain ships, due to my religion. I don't think it's wrong for others to ship gay ships and I fully support people who are in this community. I just want to follow what my faith tells me, just like I don't drink coffee or alcohol.
People keep wanting me to "change" and hint around at Ivy/Harley being a thing or something else to pacify their "concerns" and it feels so dirty to me ;-; Not the ships, but that folks want me to bend my own standards just for what they want. It makes me feel used, regardless of what their intentions are.
I have always believed differently than others. I guess because I was honest instead of saying "oh lol I just don't like them together there's no chemistry" people want to hate for it. Or fear that. Despite my actions being very clear over the years that I promote peace and love (which let me tell you is hard with a blog about villains). Because I understand a certain type of person is drawn to that, people who are hurting. But that's no excuse to let that blind you to what really is, I guess. And they assume because I don't talk about nor share my past that I don't understand where they are coming from, how they feel or that I have no experience in what I'm talking about (I've been told this actually, in so many words).
But I do. I really, really do.
In short I've been very discouraged. I don't enjoy having to worry about or explain every single thing I do. That's pretty gross of a feeling. And I wish it would all stop. Because along with all this, I have actual Real Life problems to deal with. Things that could alter my life for the worse. As well as events that have brought back some unpleasant memories and worries. So I don't need this mess too. I may end up leaving the blog.
So that's me guys. Feel free to share your thoughts on all this.